It´s March 24th. We're in the middle of the Corona situation. How do you experience the situation at the moment?
I think every day is different and every day I have a different perception. I think today for me, it's about to experiencing more my living room in my apartment. At the moment, I am alone because my roommates have gone and I am staying here alone. And so I experience new spaces of the apartment and the spirit of the place. And it's beautiful. There's a lot of light here and I'm enjoying it very much.
And at the same time, today it was very difficult to wake up. I went to bed very late last night. I was awake basically at 2:00 a.m and I was still completely awake. I'm experiencing these difficulties in going through the night and also going through the day. And this is affecting right now my activities. The few ones that I am planning every day. My schedule has become very poor compared with a couple of weeks ago, so there are only two or three things. And they seem a lot.
And at the same time, what I'm experiencing, is a special time of vision, of investigation inside myself. So I'm writing, I am reading poems, reflecting a lot and I am doing some inner work.
And I'm some days I feel a special connection with myself. Some days not. Like today it's one of the days in which I don't feel so much connection with myself. I feel quite disconnected. But most of the days I felt something special happening inside and I could connect with it.
When you turn your way of looking from the inside to the outside and you look at Italy, your country. Is there something that you learn about your country or your society?
Yes. I think I am learning a few things. One that surprised me very much is a new way of relating between citizens and institutions – meaning institutions and policy makers. Right now, it's a very direct relationship with citizens and this is surprising me a lot. Every night, I'm reading the posts the president of the region is posting at the same time every day, around midnight. And then there are like 200 or 300 comments and he's replying not to all of them, but many of them with questions and he is replying to 1 am on facebook to people. And this is very touching for me.
Also, the mayor of my city is giving a daily Facebook live every morning at half past 11. Dialoguing with citizens and asking questions. Some of them are really critical of course. And people that are now in the institutions are facing a big challenge. And I'm very touched by how some of them are dealing with it.
And I think that this is creating a new sense of trust in the institutions that I think for our country is quite new. It was not here before, as strong as I'm feeling right now, and hope it will last also after the crisis. It will stay with us, this new way of communicating, relating more directly, trusting, asking, facing the criticism, replying to them.
It's nice. Thank you. In your life or in your society, is there anything that you want more of or less of, once the crisis is overcome?
There is something in your question that I react to, the idea of overcoming and they can say why I react to that. Because I believe this situation will not be overcome completely. In my mind, it's better to think that we have to get use to these conditions.
And they will last. So we will have to find ways to live with it basically. Also, the idea of overcoming creates immediately a high and a low dream of life and I'm trying not to step in there, meaning I'm trying to stay with what we have now. I would rather being questioning my present life here if you allow me.
So what do you want more or less of in your life?
What do I want more? Probably one of the things that I miss very much is physical contact, to be very transparent and honest.
So probably it is this part that I have to find ways to express differently, also because I'm alone in my life generally. But also apart from the coronavirus I am living alone. So this part is important to my life and I would love to find ways to have intense moments with people I love. So more in a way to make it more simple. More love!
What do I want less?
Why it's so difficult for me to accept this question? Probably the answer. But I l would love to be less concerned about my finances. In this is also something that will stay with me apart from the corona crisis. I mean, it's something that keeps staying with me now for a long time. So in this moment it is even more more intense somehow.
Yes, I would love to have less concerns about it, meaning having a more stable ground as a freelancer. And now, for the first time, the Italian government has decided to give a salary for March to freelancer's. This is the first time in our country that freelancers are considered and they are evaluating to create some measures to help people that work like me as a freelancer to have at least basic rights guaranteed if you get sick and have a salary.
So, yes less of uncertainty in terms of finances. Some more stability and more stable ground as a freelance. But keep on working as a freelance, but at the same time, having a little bit more of stability and less anxiety about finances.
You already mentioned that a highest dream comes to you. And I mean, if this is the new reality we have and maybe the situation will change a little bit for the better. So when you think one year from now or two years from now, what would be your wildest dream for your society or your life? What don't you even dare to dream?
I think I have a dream about a collective, a huge, a massive open forum everywhere. So that all these voices that are emerging also in this moment of crisis and are becoming more visible can learn to relate to each other better.
And they don´t stay stiff and rigid and that they can sing somehow and that we can hear them singing – all of us. So this is connected also to me in a couple of years, meaning that I sense that I can keep on contributing to the world in this sense – helping myself and people to let things be and sing fully.
Beautiful. Thank you.
